"Mencari yang hilang, sambil menanti yang mungkin tak akan datang"

Wah, kali ini, tiba2 teringatkan blogspot 'crumplespace'...

It has been so long since I last wrote.  Well, my life now is.... as a father of my 1st Boy, a slave to a little boy, and parent who doesn't nurse. Hahahaha!

Hello reader, I've been so disappointed to all my applications, all the letters sent to those bodies of organizations.  You know what? I've been doing nothing since the past..... since I graduated, and my application to continue was still pending. pending. pending. pending. pending...

It is like, well, I've lost something that really I can hold on to and belongs to me since I enter this line of studies... I've been thinking of letting it go, do not turn back, and start a new line, but every time setting foot to the nearest Health Care Centre, I can't help not to look back, and to imagine the future with it... AArrrghh!...

Then what?

Then I stumbled upon an old friend through whatsapp. He's a cool guy, a good father himself... then introduced me to one small group in that android app.  Uhh.. I thought, I won't be interested much with it, as I have my own business running at the moment... just imagine, I'll get monthly 4% of all the cash I lend out to peps... (hey STOP there!!! I'm not at all an ALONG okay!!!)... No worry, its legal.

Well, when this old friend of mine told me, that we need to have variety of sources of incomes, in order to move forward in life, it is still... STILL, not interesting at all..... AT FIRST... not before?....

BOOOMM!!!!

He told me, that there was one International company, a Franchising company that can give me a goooood payout, while I'm just as an Inactive or Passive Partner!

What??!!! is this real?? huhuuuu... it is a pain in the @$$ to try to figure out about this company..

But... making the story shorter..

I joined in.. not because I'm a $$$$$$, not even because I'm too stupid ( of course I am a bit.. hahhaha, or even more... Kihihihiiiiii), but because it is the first legitimate company, proven, supported by the Gov, and even approved by the BNMal that I've known.

Now I'm not at all regretting with what I've done with my cash... because I've seen it back in my account. And I ain't gonna tell ya about it, until I show you what I can get with it after 3 ~ 6 months... hopefully...

Sometimes, people will compare us with the other 'us' which they knew, but they are all wrong about it.. I won't blame them, because they've been scratched before... by the other 'us'... but wait, we'll show them how it is really done.... soon.  But I am also not pushing off those who comes and asks!!!?? I want to share, and I want everyone whom I knew, to get what I got... You're welcome to ask.

Now, I am assembling my own mini office, which I'd called mini because it's only an old table, one old PC, two printers, and one 2 inch thick file folder. Ouh, and a power supply for all the gadgets. Lols.

I've just got back from Mensiang, Menggatal around 10pm last night 15/02/2014. It's part of my life now, my job, my source of income, merely to feed my one little cub, and my small family I have.

Well, it isn't even about the main title isn't it? uh.. its only the first two paragraphs.. loLss..

But uughh anyways! It feels good to write again.. I hope I can write more...

Nite2 kawan2... those who's studying, study smart, those who's working, work smart, and those who's sleeping, of course you'd sleep and snore! Hahahahaa...

p/s. Good luck in everything you guys do okay.... peace...
p/s2. I just realized that I can upload a video on blogspot... hahaa...

hari ini 14 Dec 2009 - monday

baru buka balik blog ne, ayaaa... mcm sayang pula kasi tinggal...

kekadang tu... bila time2 sangat2 bosan... tus xda tpt utk hilangkan boardem, mcm best pulak ada ni blog... apa lagi kalau ada 1 or 2 orang yg sekali sekala membaca.. at least klo inda dibaca pun, suatu hari nanti dibaca oleh seseorang juga...

tadi tu nampak satu moderator approval comment... tus diapprove.. nah, ni ada suda balik ni crumpledspace.. bole la dibaca time2 bosan.... heheheheee..

ntahla.. kebosanan tahap apa ni, smpai homework smua mcm xda penting sa rasa... walhal gpa/cgpa mcm T*hi ja... hishh....

sangat2 la xtaw apa mo difikir.. apa mo dibuat... kerja sudah dilist... tu pun nasib baik ada yg sudi list n entertain utk beberapa waktu.. hepy2 ckit suda rasanya pastu... hehhee.. aish.. perlu diketuk2 ka apa kpala ni baru bole jalan...

bah.. crumpledspace dot blogspot dot com, tengah malam ni 14 Dec 2009 ko dah diconteng kembali.. identiti pun jelas dari benua mana penulisnya ni.. fuh...

anyway... ni la yg sa rasa skrg ni.. mc blank2... kurang glukose kali kpala.. kerja inda mo buat.. p makan mau jak.. smua tergendala sebab sifat buruk nie.... eh.. sini ja la buat masa ni crumplespace... mo g segarkan tubuh dulu di kamar bersiram.... see ya on the next post crumpledspace....

.. ;)...

its my fate

~~~~~as i looked through the pages of some of my 'drugh', i felt back the pain like a sword has been push through my heart... .. .. .

so hurt...

so... so... hurt... ... ... .. . . it's my fate...

and it hurt more... because the pages i saw... i knew exactly every corner of that place... and i've been there before.. spending my 24 'miecet' there.. or more than that...

i am so dissappointed... i regretted it so much.. soooooo.. much.. and it is hard to let go.. and i know, it will never.....

looking at the titles and subtitles of each pages... they seems to be having so much fun... bringing back all the view of that place.. which is still fresh in my mind... that makes me bled again.... i never in my life, forget about it even if i wanted to... it's my fate...

a diamond slide through the rugged surface... with the pain it sings... while thinking "will i ever stand in that position ever, will i ever go to places like that again, will i ever succeed in what i persue?"

i know the only medicine is, to get back all those lost years by achieving what i am persuing...

but then i think again "will i be able to achieve it, with no penny in my pockets, no gold to be sold, no wood to be carved??".... i felt the acheing pain again....

it felt so hurt....

it hurt me so much... so badly... can i just shed my diamonds again?....

ohh... i realy spoiled my chance.... it's my fate...

then i think again... "why did i spilled the milk off the glass?? why don't i just drink it, and have the satisfaction in tasting it?? not even i'll get satisfaction, it is healthy too!!!"

i am so stupid.... very foolish... and it hurt...

hurt me so bad...

sooo.. sooo... .. .. . hurting......... it's my fate..

i am not being negative... not being back viewing... but history will never be deleted, even if times faded it away from my age....

i remembered the medicine i mention before... and think... "i must get to it once again, and never lose grip of that glass of milk this time"... i hope a miracle will help me towards it, even if my pocket is penniless... it's my fate....

yesterday, today, tomorrow, till the last breath.. till my encephalon becomes dirt again..... it's my fate...

AND I AM GOING TO CHANGE IT WHATEVER COSTS IT TAKES. THAT IS ALSO MY FATE.......~~~~~~~

Life as a student

A glimpse of what may happen or had happened during my time:

1. Student will go to the lecturers room n copy others work, stealing them from the lecturer's pgeon hole.

2. Back seaters will ALWAYS copy and paste whenever they'v got quizes (I hate it so much that I didn't have the chance, coz I'll certainly got lower marks then those people)

3. Some group members will purposedly not to or never pay the costs of d photocopied notes.

4. Some stdnt realy knw how 2 find their ways to lick their lecturers ASS (get easy marks laaa apa lagi)

5. Some stdent owez does some childish act, to get an attention frm others in the group (cam budaks2 tul!!)

6. Biasalah kwn2, jeles dgn kemampuan kwn lain. Pastu tikam dari blakang. (dpan manissss jak)

7. TIRU MENIRU AMALAN STUDENTS. Lagi ditiru, lagi tinggi markah....

8. Assignment diberi lebih awal, tapi last2 esok hantar, malam ni baru berhabis2an buat, tiru sana, tiru sini, call sana, call sini, cut n paste, esok hantar, pegi class mcm zombie, mata tebukak, tebeliak pun ada, p minda melayang ntah p mana (doiiii giaa)

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